Thursday, January 3, 2008
Never a dull moment
We were leaving speech therapy and my son wanted to stay and watch the tv in the lobby. I tugged at him to walk with me instead of staying. He jumped in the air and landed on the floor right outside the therapy center. Screaming with his throat, back flat on the floor. He did this like 7 times or so until I picked him up like a big heavy sac of potatoes and carried him halfway to the car. I put him down because he is heavy and I thought he was better. Bad idea. He jumped high in the air and dropped himself on the floor screaming like I was killing him, crying with his throat. He was not there…he was gone, blank stare and all. Everytime I was successful in picking him up, he would do the same and attempt to run back to the lobby. When he could not, he would jump and drop again. To make it better he then would roll over and over and over in the middle of the parking lot as he screamed. I finally gathered some strength, picked him up high again as he would throw his head back in full tantrum and pinned him with my shoulder to the car seat to buckle him in. Once buckled he was in full rage…screaming and would not let me pick up my keys from beneath him (which I had dropped to buckle him in) because he was purposely throwing his legs up towards my head! I finally pinned them down and got my keys. I closed the door and walked around to my side and I could hear him outside of the car screaming and kicking! Wow
It was a trancelike transformation because he had been super vocal, singing and so happy all day long. Who is this person crying? I drove back and finally broke down crying. I was super calm as he did it. In fact, I stood watching him for some time trying to figure out what the hell he was doing and why! I had a complete poker face the entire time until I started driving. 5 minutes later he was happy like nothing.
Got home, was happy and when it was nap time he did the same thing. I usually lay down next to him until he falls asleep. I just stayed there as he screamed and screamed. He is doing this stimming think that is like he is trying to catch his breath (but it' s not precisely that) it's like he had some pain but can't and doesn't know to tell me. His heart was racing fast. I finally caught him off guard and held his face really tight and said "sleepy time now!" and he cried a teeny bit more, turned over and crashed...all within 15 seconds of me doing that. Like I snapped him out of it.
So much for my good news. Must be the side effects I hear about all the time from chelation; that sometimes it gets worse before it gets better? But hey, will take 30 steps forward, 2 back ANY TIME!
On a funny note, they just called from the center about some financial thing and I completely thought they were calling to find out about the mad woman who was carrying her crazy child against his will to the car today..lol gotta find the humor in it right?