And so it starts.
The nausea? Morning sickness? Nope, well yes a little nausea but I am talking about the fears. We went to the doctor last week, had a sonogram and there it was... a beautiful egg sack, yolk and all and even a filckering heart beat. Sigh.....so far so good.
We are trying to not get overjoyed until the next appointment which is when we actually hear the heartbeat. Sigh.
Baby steps, right?
My husband is very guarded and fearing more autism in our lives. I can't really blame him, except I tell him we know the signs and what to do for extra early intervention if need be. After all, we have been at this for quite a while now. I know though that fears or not, it will take one look into the baby's eyes for him to melt again like he did with our first!
Only time will tell. For now, I leave the fear in the hands of my husband and, although I too am scared, I will try to focus on all the positive stuff that comes with being pregnant.
By belly is starting to pop out. Already 35 1/1 inches! up from 34" last week. 8 weeks tomorrow. 4 more weeks and I will be able to breathe slower and calmer.
On to research organic everything: mattresses, PJs, clothing and then glass bottles, natural toys, etc...This is going to be interesting. What about formula? Organic formula? What is the alternate option to milk other than cow's milk and my own?
I think this is going to be great for my son! I am mostly excited to see and experience their interaction. Everytime he sees a baby awake he says "baby sleep," won't work but it will be cute to see him try!
So much has happened since my last post! In a nutshell:
- MRI came back normal (of course it did)
- I now LOVE my son's teacher. Boy was I wrong. I admit it. This woman has been an angel in our lives. She cares so much. You can tell she goes home and is always thinking of the kids and what else she can do. Always reading and coming up with new ideas and projects. I will be forever grateful.
- Some verbal gains in request form. Still no conversation. Requested Cliclitown Heroes, Doodle'bugs' lol, LililiEinsteins all shows he had no idea I had taped for him, but read the titles in the DVR taped list and requested them.
- Has been doing fabulously in reading sight words.
- Speech Eval came back, went to the insurance department and now it's sitting in the "scheduling department" before they call me...so that he can start speech at the new center.
- Contacted the school's speech therapist who had not contacted me since school started and have now begun to get regular updates.
- The return of more ear covering, humming and some tantrums. Not sure what to blame this one on yet.
- Sent in a form to begin process for Auditory Integration Therapy.
- Had a long discussion last night with my father in law and his wife as to why he eats what he eats and how he eats it. They seem to think it's really easy to get him to eat everything. I hate those conversations. They also think it's not rocket science to potty train him. Well then, come on over buddy. You do it. :( grrrrrrrrrrrr
- Had an IEP meeting this morning which went smoothly. Most of the things my son is learning are out of the IEP, but stem from the actual "goals" if that makes sense. I would say that this year, IEP or no IEP, he is getting a lot from his teachers. Luckily.
That's pretty much our update. We have had a rollercoaster year, but all in all we seem to be in better spirits lately and might be finding that light at the end of the tunnel I had lost some time ago. This year has been really tough on us. I have high hopes for this coming year!
Deep breath.
